I always like to wake up at the early morning cos usually it is more likely that I can catch some sun. Unfortunately that “early morning” happens very, VERY rarely… But I did it today and the rewards: Absolutely lovely, sunny weather. I am writing this post, while sunbathing near the open window. I wish that I had a laptop (as well(!!!) – I LOVE my 22” TFT) so I could go out to the park and write from there… (Also I love the sound of the lucky bastard motorcycle owner’s motorcycles going for a spin on this beautiful day)

New attempt to write regular posts…

The reason for not writing regularly is the following:

OK. You need to know a bit of history:

Last 7 months and 15 days of my life in chronological order:

January – March => My ex moved out from the flat

Practically I was a dead person during these 3 months. For a while I tried to “get her back” obviously with no success whatsoever it was only good to humiliate myself. I was unable to do university, hardly able to work. The good side in this though that I have no regret now in terms of the break up and I made very good friends during the recovery period (say, they were already existing friends I just tightened them up). Also I lost more than 3 stones (approx. 20-25 kg.)

March – I was travelling between Edinburgh, Dublin, London, and Budapest. Mainly because of a long requested dental surgery in Hungary (7 sessions al together in two separate visits (one week each) and I still have to go back to get final touches). London: visiting friends, Dublin: St. Patrick’s Day

April – June – I am totally skint, no money whatsoever. Reasons are due to overspending in March and being left with considerably large amount of unpaid shared bills with my ex.

I was working all the time sometimes over 70(!!!) hours per a week.

I sorted out most of the financial problems (I had to take yet again a personal loan but at least I am closer to back on my feet)

At the meantime I considered myself “fully recovered” emotionally which is not too bad keeping in mind the state where I was in January.

I started to make sort of plans in order to do something with my new situation and overall with my life.

Original plan was that I am going to get a job, make a carrier (abandon uni again, god knows how many times did I that already. I think I have been on 5 different courses al together, so I spent enough time on several universities to finish one course. What a pity that they were all different courses… – I never finished any of them). SO make a carrier do some kind of open Uni and see what happens

July – Not too much success with the job hunting. I had a few interviews but I have been rejected on all of them largely during the last interview (btw. If anyone needs help with job hunting I become an expert). At the same time my University (Officially I am still a student) wrote me a letter, saying that they would like to help me in order to keep in the course cos I had good marks during the first term.

So I came up with the following plan (You should know, that I am not a very well organized person but I always need a general or should I say overall plan to head somewhere. I can’t just floating in thin air I need a plan. The process usually is chaotic but I always know what I am doing. It is like backpacking travel. You have an approximately plan where do you want to go and what do you want to see, but the leading routes can vary depending on the actual situation.)

I am going back to Uni. I wanted to scrap this option because I am not exactly 18 years old anymore and I really would appreciate some kind of stability financially and being able to do things without thinking too much of the money side. But I had to realize the followings:

1. I am single I have no family, kids, spouse or wife to take care of.

2. I might regret in my rest of my life not to finish my academic studies

3. I would be the first one from my family who actually would have a degree (ok that is no true cos my older cousin is a lawyer and both of my younger cousins are on University.

4. I was studying something (I am not that mysterious – Electrical&Electronic Engineering) what I was really enjoying. I am in a course specialized on renewable energy sources during the last year. I find this very exciting and important. Also the course feeds my “geekyness”. It fits well with my views on nature and the future of Humanity. Once I am graduated, I don’t think that I actually ever will do proper engineering but I have a business idea so I think I just going to employ my younger classmates to do all the work… lol.

5. So I only have to pretend that I am 10 years younger and that is it. :-)

I am very aware that it won’t be a joyride because I still have to pay my monthly instalments for the loan also I have to pay rent and other stuff. Also 4 years is a long term commitment. So I pretty much have to work a lot beside of uni but the reward would be much greater than the invested hassle and I hoping that after 1 or 2 years I will able to find some kind of part time job within the industry.

Finally after Lenina’s request, 8 random facts about me.

  1. I had two serious motorbike accidents and I still LOVE bikes and motorcycling and generally all kind of speed freak extreme sports (I am into powerkiting nowadays). It is all started with a BMX bicycle when I was a kid.
  2. I do adore women kind. If I would be a girl I would be feminist. I am heterosexual in every way and I consider myself quite “manly”. But I enjoy women’s company, women behaviour and certain personalities are truly entertains me. I think women are one of the greatest inventions of Mother Nature. I do have very good male friends as well but girls are fascinating me. (Probably it’s because I from a family where women overrule everything… :-) )
  3. Politically I am left winged (being an anarchist when I was younger) but sometimes with a conservative views on certain things.
  4. I am Hungarian who lives in Scotland. I have no intention to go back to Hungary and this is not because of money reasons or cos better prospective. Regardless of so much annoyances. I enjoy to be here.
  5. I like tattoos and I have several tattoos myself I even have a thistle tattooed on my leg for the time in Scotland. I like nice tattoos on girls…
  6. I spend more than 5 years on different universities, so I have a decent education. I never finished any of them though. See above…
  7. This is the longest period of my life when I am actually single since I am 15.
  8. I am a music freak. Music can influence my mood, luckily only to the positive direction.